Late night bloggin'

Why, OH WHY am I still awake???

I hate not being able to sleep. I hate not being able to go to bed at a normal time.
A lot of the time it is simply because I can't shut off my brain.
For instance, The other night I was laying in bed and I started to think about the job I lost in November.
Started to think of how I really screwed up and lost a lot of friends that I worked with because of .. well because your friends at work and then when you leave it's like you never existed.
I don't know I am just having a hard time dealing with losing my job.It was a REALLY great job and I feel like I will never get another job like it.

I don't know this is just a late night ramble. I miss my friends, My job, life like it use to be.
I just don't know what to do with myself.
I don't want to talk on the phone. I don't want to go anywhere. I don't want to be bothered by other people. I don't want to leave the house. It's depressing. I hate feeling like this and not having any way to fix it.

andddd



I just don't know.