I love Wednesdays

I love Wednesdays for the main fact that I get to link up with an AWESOME blog!! Today I am linking up with Michelle over at The Vintage Apple!! She is a doll! I love linking up with her and  I love seeing new blogs! It's always fun to make new friends!!

Love this bedroom! I need a chandelier STAT!!

Just to add a little sass.

Is it Obvious I have baby fever?

precious!!

Love this outfit!

So adorable

 

 

I love babies!!!

Late night bloggin'

Why, OH WHY am I still awake???

I hate not being able to sleep. I hate not being able to go to bed at a normal time.
A lot of the time it is simply because I can't shut off my brain.
For instance, The other night I was laying in bed and I started to think about the job I lost in November.
Started to think of how I really screwed up and lost a lot of friends that I worked with because of .. well because your friends at work and then when you leave it's like you never existed.
I don't know I am just having a hard time dealing with losing my job.It was a REALLY great job and I feel like I will never get another job like it.

I don't know this is just a late night ramble. I miss my friends, My job, life like it use to be.
I just don't know what to do with myself.
I don't want to talk on the phone. I don't want to go anywhere. I don't want to be bothered by other people. I don't want to leave the house. It's depressing. I hate feeling like this and not having any way to fix it.

andddd



I just don't know.

I am still alive!

Just a FYI.. I am still alive. I know, I haven't been around lately. Its been CRAZY this past month or so. 

In the beginning of December I found out that I was an AUNT!! I am still wrapping my head around the fact that I am an aunt and that my son has a cousin!! It was a very unexpected blessing... Not the less a blessing.

James Michael- Wyatt

 After find out all that news, It was time for Christmas. Oh man. It was busy and just crazy. With my family my husband and I have about 3409582 Christmas events to attend for both sides of the family. Little man was of course THRILLED that he got so many gifts!

 

I got some really great gifts. From my in laws, I got a sewing machine!! SCORE!! I am currently still trying to figure it out! From my parents, I got a really special gift.  I got my grandmother's kitchen aid mixer! I know this may not sound special, But i don't think my family has a lot of things to hand down. So I was especially excited to receive that gift.

For little man we went a little over board (We manage to do this every year. agh! )We bought him a power wheel & Santa delivered it on Christmas eve. Oh man, This year was a big fat F-A-I-L. We were all laughing when then video was recorded.  I thought I would give you a chance to laugh your butt of. Because I do. Every time I watch it I just smile and laugh.

Daddy????

Man this kid makes me laugh so much!

There are also days he makes me want to stick my tail between my legs and run away.fast.

Like... TODAY!

I decided to treat my little man to the nasty play area at McDonald's. When we first get there, No was there. Just Me, Little man and McDonald staff. We were having a grand ole time. Laughing and playing and drinking a chocolate milk shake because he has the coolest mom around. Well, School lets out and soon there are tons of kids there with their parents. Little man was playing with a little girl who was probably like... 6-7(I am HORRIBLE with looking at a kid and deciding how old they are. So I am probably wrong.) and ways he comes back laughing like he just told a hysterical joke because you know a 2 yr old know so awesome knock knock jokes. WELL anyways.. He is laughing as he says "I spit on her...ah..hahaa" and of course being the calm and collected mother I am said "WHAT?!? YOU DID WHAT!?!? ARE YOU CRAZY!You spit on her??"  Then, the mother of this little girl turns around and say "Oh, yea, He already spit on her. It's OK."

UMMMMMMMM.... No, It's not okay.. I made him say sorry and we left.

 It's all fun and milk shakes until someone gets spit on.

until next time

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waking up to the most terrifying thing a mother can.

Today, I had one of the most frightening moments a mother thinks of.

I suffer  have depression. I take meds to help but I decided to take myself off and as a result I have been sleeping alot.  BIG MISTAKE. I have hit a rough patch. Today I learned how this affects my family just as much as it does myself.

Today, Hubs had to go to work. So, he wasn't home to get up with little man. I wake up because I found it odd that little man had not came into my room yet. Usually, if he wakes up before us he comes into our room and crawls in bed and snuggles. I get up to go check on him in his room. As soon as I open my bedroom door my back door is wide open & the screen door is closed. Panic hit my mind. I ran to his room and he was gone. I run outside in the 30 degree weather bare foot and in a spagetti strap shirt without a bra...It was a little nippy. I run to the drive way and look and he is no where. I run to the front yard... He isn't there. I run over to my in laws house (our backyards connect) and my mother in law sees me and I fling the back door open and she asks "whats wrong????" I just yelled "AIDEN!!!" and I think that i said something about not being able to finding him. She said she would run out front of her house and look. I ran back to my house and ran inside SCREAMING little mans name... and I thought I heard my MIL call my name so I slip on the shoes by the back door and run out. She DOESN'T have little man. At that point, I knew something terrible happened. She says "Trey (Hubs) took him over to meme and pa this morning... He is over there." I was also calling hubs over and over while I was looking for little man. He answers as MIL tells me he is at meme and pa's. So I scream at him "Why didn't you tell me you were taking him over there!?!? YOU LEFT THE BACKDOOR WIDE OPEN!! WHY WOULDN'T YOU TELL ME!?!? I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING ALL OVER FOR HIM OUTSIDE!!!". He says I'm sorry and I hung up and ran inside. I crawled in my bed and started to cry. I felt HORRIBLE.

I officially deserve the worst mother alive award. How could I let myself get that low? It was the single most terrifying moment in my LIFE. I have never felt such fear in my life. I never felt such disappointment in myself as a mother in my life. I scare the living CRAP out of my mil and myself. I would not be able to  live with myself if something HAD happened to little man. This evening I went to my mother in laws to apologize for scaring her today and she said she knew something was wrong when she saw me running to her back door. She said I had this "look" on my face and thought I was going to say something happened to him or that he was unconscious.

This morning was definitely a wake up call. I cannot let my son down.

You bet when hubs brought him home I hugged that kid so tight.

Lord, Thank you for protecting my baby and giving me a reality check..

I just had to get this of my chest.